Blog Self-Preservation

Because We Are Hiding Our Hands

tumblr_ndgiaaiOgb1qlmppmo1_500

I. I’ve been going down the memory lane lately. Reading old blog posts and diary entries, browsing through old photographs, and re-reading old love poems. I can’t believe how much time I’ve wasted on people who I once thought was my world. It’s funny how my own version of forever had ended, it doesn’t left any sound yet I feel it as it reverberates through my past and disturbing my present. But let me tell you this: I won’t let it go as far as my future with you.

II. I remember one night, as we were standing in the hallway with yellow tiles, you told me something that you remembered out of the blue. And then I saw your meek or rather nostalgic smile, and I don’t know why I wanted so bad to hug you all of a sudden. I restrained myself though, because I’m always afraid of rejections. And I get too many of them lately.

III. Here’s something I wrote at the back of a cupcake store receipt some time in September: “You can thank your stars all you want but I’ll always be the lucky one. I never like itineraries, I never like rules. Life is one big adventure. For what it’s worth, I will love you better.” And did I ever tell you that you taste a lot like that Salted Caramel Cheesecake I’ve ordered? You have the same effect on me, too. You make me giddy.

IV. All I want is to hold you forever / All I need is you more everyday / You saved my heart / From being broken apart / You gave your love away / And I’m thankful everyday / For the gift. Do you remember where you want this song to be played? I do. Just like I remember every single thing about you.

V. As I’ve been browsing through old memories, I realized that I haven’t wrote any single item for you (despite the occasional poems, of course) So I want to dedicate this one to you. Because you make me happy. Because you’re making me lose my mind since Day One. And because we are still hiding our hands.



You Might Also Like

Social Media Widget Powered by Acurax Web Development Company